If you follow me on social media (my instagram) you might have seen me have a little mini melt down on account of being really and pathetically unwell.
I was on holiday, my first supposed chilled holiday of the year and work cropped up, I didn’t say no, and eventually rushing around like a headless chicken in 36 degrees to find wifi and send emails – well, it will get you rather unwell if you’re not careful.
The emergency doctor was sent round, I was so weak, the holiday was ruined, I wasn’t even allowed to fly back home and my mood just went from bad to worse not being able to do anything.
Finally back home in the UK, my annoyance at letting things get the better of me and more so letting it affect my health was continuing to upset me.
So I started writing it all down – all for SIDE NOTES – this new, honest and open platform that I’ve created to share the realities of what I do, the work life balance, or lack thereof, the craziness of it all, etc etc. I probably have about 15 posts I could create from the “cancelled holiday” debacle, and I was really ready to publish and vent, but as I read them over, I was instantly reminded of what a completely cathartic experience it is just to write it all down. I wrote down every thought, every expression, every feeling, and eventually I left it on the page (or notes on the iPhone) and let it go.
As a writer and a prolific journal keeper I can’t believe that somewhere in between work and life getting a little full on, I ‘forgot’ to keep writing my shit down. I even have a compact Happiness Planner that I forgot to take on holiday – go figure.
So although in time I may find the right way to share some of my experiences with you on SIDE NOTES, my main point for now is to write down your hurt, write down your anger, your worries, your stresses. You may want to message or call and communicate it all to someone, or at someone, but take your time to write it down first. I found that once I’d written it all down, it didn’t feel the need to communicate it to the world. But it was so massively helpful to my state of mind. It’s a great way to practise self care, self love, and to create a dialogue with yourself that in time you might find you never really wanted or needed to share, you just needed to express it.
Admission: I did manage to watch all of season 2 of Master of None and an entire season of Bates Motel in between my fever and taking tablets so all was not lost I guess. Thank God for Netflix.